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Post by Teddy Winborne on Apr 11, 2007 10:30:05 GMT 7
Teddy cupped his chin in his hand, and stroked it gently as his mind wandered. What was he thinking about? Nothing important, really. Not this time anyway. Just rather stupid stuff, that he'd never get the answer to. Like: 'why is the sky blue?', 'why is the grass so long?', and other ones in that region. "Yeah, well I do too." he said, in a light tone. "It's fine...as long as you promise to not do it again on me." He needed her in his life. He was the only one he could really talk about anything with.
He started laughing. None of this 'I-don't-feel-like-it-but-I'll-laugh-anyways' stuff. It was a genuine laugh. "Bubbles is most definetly immature. But don't worry, it's a good thing." he said, once she'd done her song. He leaned back on his arms, feeling the warm sand against his hands. "Just remember to be patient." he added, and winked teasingly.
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Post by Evelyn Pierce on Apr 11, 2007 10:56:39 GMT 7
"I know I know." she said and laughed. He was like her older brother always watching out for her and telling her to do things one way or another. "I won't rush things but you know sometimes I can't help it.." she said and pushed out her lower lip as she looked up at him. "You can't blame me though can you?" she said referring to the boy problem.
"You love my immaturity. It's the only thing that makes you laugh like that." she said and nodded as she looked over to him and stuck out her tongue as she laughed. She then looked up at the sky which was now getting darker. "Isn't it beautiful." she said as she looked at the many stars in the sky. She saw two that were somewhat close together. "Look! It's me and you." she said happily as she smiled over at him.
She wouldn't be able to live without the boy - he meant the world to her and he was the only one who really kept her sane. She then sat up so that she wasn't lying in the sand any longer. "..but yeah tell me about this Madison girl." she said as she smiled over at him happily.
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Post by Teddy Winborne on Apr 11, 2007 11:13:40 GMT 7
Teddy let himself yawn gently, and looked over at Evelyn once again. "Oh, put that away." he said teasingly, and reached out to play with her lower lip; gently and briefly. Just to put emphasis on what he'd said. "You know I'm just looking out for you." he added, and gave her a wink.
He tilted his head up towards the sky, taking all of it in. He was always taken by the night sky. It always made him feel small, yet big at the same time. Weak, but powerful. Insignificant, but important. "Haha, yeah. I guess you could say that." he replied, and smiled widely. He had tried following her finger to see the stars she was pointing at, but it didn't seem to work. So he just pretended that he knew what she was talking about.
"Madison?" he repeated, buying himself a little time to think of how to answer it. "You know her, don't you?" Another question buy time. "I don't know. I don't even really want to crush on her though. We already have a good friendship, and I don't want to act on it." Besides, the last time he'd acted upon a crush, he'd taken his heart and stomped on it. He didn't want to cross that line again.
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Post by Evelyn Pierce on Apr 13, 2007 0:49:47 GMT 7
"Are you just scared that you're going to get hurt?" she asked as she looked over at him. She knew that he had been hurt really badly last time but if he never gives anyone a chance he won't ever feel that happiness again. "..you've got to give her a chance Teddy." she said as she grabbed his hand and squeezed it gently as she looked over at him. It may seem a little fucked up for the girl who couldn't love anyone to give her friend advice about his love life. "I mean you've got to give her a chance because not everyone is going to crush your heart. You just have to give her a chance." she said as she smiled over at him. She couldn't help but feel for him because she knew Teddy was a wonderful guy and he deserved the best. "You're wonderful. Everyone loves you." she whispered as she smiled over at him. "You know I love you." she said happily as she smiled happily over at him. She really did love the boy he was her family. She looked back up at the sigh and let a sigh of happiness escape her lips as she turned to look over at him. She squeezed his hand gently and smiled at him as she glanced around once more.
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Post by Teddy Winborne on Apr 13, 2007 1:20:47 GMT 7
Teddy tilted his head downwards, and shrugged. It was true, he was so afraid of getting hurt. He shouldn't be, really, but he was. Getting hurt again would be something he couldn't deal with. "But I already gave chances to the other girl." he mumbled quietly. "Besides, I don't even think she likes me like that." he added, and shrugged again.
"Yeah, but someone will. I'd rather go through life without loving anyone, then getting hurt repeatedly." His head was still down, but he was looking at Evelyn now. He squeezed her hand gently, a small smile flickering across his lips. "Well, she didn't love me." he pointed out. Yup, definite love issues for this boy. "And I loved her. It just didn't work." The smile had disappeared again.
It appeared yet again though, when she spoke. She always had a way to make him happy, no matter how mad, sad or angry he was. "Yes, love. I know you love me." he said, still smiling brightly. "And I love you." he added, for no real reason. He was thankful for the love that him and Evelyn had. But this one was easier for him, since it was more of a brother-sister love, than a boyfriend-girlfriend love.
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Post by Evelyn Pierce on Apr 14, 2007 5:09:04 GMT 7
"Oh Teddy love is something so sweet you can not compare it to sorrow." she said as she looked over at him. "You'd rather die a life without loving anyone or die a life where you struggled to find love?" she asked and shook her head. "Everyone must have sorrow and tragedy in their life but the love and bliss overcomes it." she said as she smiled over at him. She too had not felt love but she could only dream of such a blissful thought as love. "I too hope to find love but I know I will have to struggle to get love. Love isn't something so easy to achieve. You must want it." she tried to explain as she smiled over at him as she sat up. "You live life to love. Not to just simply live." she said and shook her head as she looked down at him. She knew he was afraid but if he never got over that he wouldn't ever know the meaning of true love and happiness. "Have you even given the poor girl a clue that you like her?" she asked as she looked over at him knowing very well Teddy probably kept his emotions tied up inside not giving the girl a clue that he had any feelings for her - especially not love or anything like it. "Give her a chance. There are plenty of other girls out there Teddy - but give her a chance." she whispered as she gave him a polite smile. She felt horrible that he wouldn't even let his emotions out when he was one of the sweetest guys she'd ever met - who couldn't fall in love with him? She layed back down in the warm sand as she dug her fingers in to it as she let her eyes close as she layed there on. "I'm glad you love me." she said and gave him a smile knowing that Riley and Teddy were the only people that truly loved her but somehow she was okay with that. "..you'll regret not giving in to love Teddy. You will." she whispered as she kept her eyes closed and took in a deep breathe of the fresh air that tasted of the salty lake.
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Post by Teddy Winborne on Apr 14, 2007 6:33:12 GMT 7
Teddy took her words, and lulled them around in his brain. Kind of like when you taste a candy you've never before, and you're a little suspicious about it at first. But then the flavour explodes inside of your mouth, and you end up enjoying it the entire time it lasts. He didn't feel like replying until he actually thought about it. Tasted them, before immediately running away. "But what if it's easier to just hide?" he asked, and glanced down at the tiny girl beside him. "What if I don't want to take that chance, and risk getting my heart broken again? What if living life to simply live is what I was made to do?"
Teddy pulled his knees up to his chest, and hugged them. He rested his chin on one of his knees, as he looked out onto the lake. It was so dark, and peaceful right now. He didn't want to leave, he just wanted to sit here and soak in his own sorrow. "No. She's one of my good friends, Evelyn. I don't have so many of those. There's no point in risking it." he added, not taking his eyes off of the water. "Are you happy, with all those guys that get in your pants and leave in the morning? Does that make you happy, to just do that day in and day out for the rest of your life?" He didn't mean to say this accusingly, but she seemed to be all about giving chances. Even though she did give all those guys a chance, they ended up just taking off probably even before she awoke.
Teddy fell silent again, not bothering to speak anymore. Not for the moment anyways. 'Why is she picking at me? I just want to live my life how I'm living it. Fuck giving chances. I already did that.' he thought to himself. He glanced over at his best friend again, but he found himself staring at the water again. It looked so lonely, yet happy at the same time. It intrigued him. In a way, he himself was both happy and sad.
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Post by Evelyn Pierce on Apr 15, 2007 23:04:36 GMT 7
She looked over to him and just shook her head - he had gone too far this time. "Don't fucking say that to me." she said and looked at him as she looked over at him in disgust. He was supposed to be her best friend and now he was just turning in to one of them. One of those guys that saw her as nothing more then a slut. She knew it may be the truth but sometimes you just don't talk about things like that because it hurts. She felt tears sting her eyes as she got up grabbing her purse and beginning to walk away from Teddy without even looking back.
Her fingers worked quickly inside of her purse to find her pack of cigarettes as she pulled out one and lit it as she took a hit from it and blew the smoke from her lips. It was her way with coping and not caring with things. The tears began to roll down her cheeks as she walked away. It was too hard having Teddy of all people telling her that she was a slut. None of the others really mattered but he was supposed to be her best friend not just another one of those guys. She didn't even take it in to consideration that maybe he hadn't meant it in that way but of course she was unwilling to listen.
She glanced back at him still in the sand as she shook her head and her tears were filling up her eyes and it was making it hard to see as she bumped in to a guy nearby and she just shook her head and continued to walk. She took another hit from her cigarette as she looked up at the sky as if it had betrayed her like Teddy had. "Why is he turning in to one of them?" she mumbled as the tears ran down her cheeks.
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Post by Teddy Winborne on Apr 16, 2007 9:32:35 GMT 7
Her words cut through him like a knife's blade. They made him want to break down and cry. They made him want to go get higher than a kite. They made him want to do so many things that he knew he shouldn't. When Evelyn stood up and walked away, Teddy didn't follow. At least, not right away. The lake was too affectionate. It was taking him in as a friend, and he wanted to stay there all night and watch it.
His brain scolded him subconciously, and he found himself on his feet and walking after Evelyn. "Come on, Bubbles." he called, his eyes on the small form walking away from him. To Teddy, it didn't sound like the words were coming from his lips. He felt detached from himself. Like his body had got up and walked after her, but his mind and soul were still sitting by the water.
"Evelyn, don't walk away from me. You know I didn't mean it like that. Besides, you do have to face it. It is true, and you know it." His words were calm, and he fought back the anger edge that he could've thrown in there. He broke into a slight jog, wanting-- no, needing to catch up with her. Evelyn was one of the only reasons he was sane.
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Post by Evelyn Pierce on Apr 18, 2007 8:36:11 GMT 7
His words stung her as she turned back to look at him. Her face was covered in tears and her body was shaking and it was hard to control. She hoped she wasn't going to have a panic attack - she hadn't had them since her freshman year and she didn't want to revisit that phase in life. She just shook her head as she listened to him. "Who the FUCK do you think you are telling me that?" she said as she scrunched up her eyebrows at him looking at him with pure disgust. "..You're supposed to be my BEST FUCKING FRIEND." she screamed as she shook her head. "So FUCKING what if it's the truth I don't want to hear it." she said and shook her head. "I've FUCKING faced it so if you want to FUCKING start that shit with me Teddy go ahead." she said getting too angry as her breathing quickened and her heart began to race.
She felt weak and needy and she just wanted to cuddle up in to his arms but this time was different. THIS time he was the enemy against her trying to break her down in to a thousand little pieces. Though his tone was calm she couldn't help but begin to grow angry with him for calling her a slut. "I-I'm n-not a s-s-slut." she whispered trying to convince herself as her tears spilled down her cheeks and she fell to her knees and shook her head tiredly. "..I know I am but I don't need you saying it. I've got enough people against me." she whispered knowing that he probably wouldn't even be able to hear her anyways.
She glanced up at him as she felt the tears run down her cheeks. "I need you Teddy. I just don't need that.." she whispered as she looked up at him just wanting him to run to her side and wrap his arms around her and hold her tight and just never let her go. "I-I n-need you so fucking much." she whispered as she leaned there against the cool sand.
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Post by Teddy Winborne on Apr 20, 2007 5:37:53 GMT 7
Regret slowly consumed his body, as Teddy listened to Evelyn scream at him. It didn't feel good, and he flinched everytime she swore. This felt all too familiar from his past, accept this time he'd caused her screaming. He'd actually given the person a reason to scream. He had promised himself to just be passive and not say anything to make people mad. But now he had, and he felt worse than anything he'd ever felt. It was lower than low, and he wished that he could just take what he'd said back. Take all of it back, and they could go back to the sand, sit down and talk again. Of course, no such luck.
His eyes focused intensely on the tiny girl, her screaming turning to whispering. He almost had to strain to hear what she was saying. "I'm sorry, Evelyn. I didn't--" Tears were threatening to pour out of his eyes. He had really not wanted to cause her pain. But he had, and there was no way he could excuse himself. "I don't want to hurt you. I--" He wiped at his eyes, trying hard to keep his tears in. "I need you too, and I didn't mean to hurt you."
Teddy was ashamed. Deeply, completely, 100% ashamed. Too ashamed to even look at her anymore. He fell to his knees and stared at the ground, unworthy to be around her any longer. "I have caused you pain, and I am just as bad as all the other assholes in Regina. I have sunk to their level." He was whispering, and he wasn't sure if Evelyn had heard this or not. He hoped he did, because he meant it. In a way, Teddy had sunk to their level. Not in every way, but in definetly one.
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Post by Evelyn Pierce on Apr 20, 2007 9:06:26 GMT 7
"Don't say that Teddy." she whispered as she looked over at him feeling weak and little as she looked over at him. Tears were streaming down her face and she just wanted to crawl in to his arms and fall asleep there and just not have to think about anything that was brought up today. "I need you s-so much." she whispered as she began to tear up she hated people seeing her like this but she didn't mind it around Teddy as much because she felt completely comfortable around him even though she was in tears and a total wreck.
She crawled over to him as she let herself snuggle in to his arms as she leaned her head against his chest as her breathing quickened its pace and her heart began to beat faster and she knew she was going to have a panic attack but she was just going to try and avoid it. She closed her eyes as she felt everything going wrong as she shook her head and held on to him tightly. "No not now.." she pleaded to her self as she held on to him tightly. She knew Teddy didn't know of her panic attacks because she had never told him - or anyone for that matter.
Tears were streaming down her face as she held on to him and sniffled a bit. She was putting everything that had just happened between them and she just wanted to lay there with him and not ever move. She couldn't help but need him right now
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